Jealous Bithch!

jeal⋅ous:
–adjective
1. feeling resentment against someone because of that person's rivalry, unfaithfulness, success, or advantages

First I would never call or woman a "bitch." Secondly, the title is only used as a tool for you to open the blog and read. Here you are so let's begin..ha

I was talking with a female friend this weekend and she was talking to me (admittedly) about all the (crazy in my opinion) jealous things she's done in the past. I have to admit I was even a little amazed by her actions, but she's a cool girl and she "claims" she has reasons so who am I to judge.

Everyone has experienced jealousy and even acted out in some way. I never have bc I'm just a cool smooth brotha like that!! ha. I've had very few "girlfriends" in the past but 3 out of 4 were crazy and checked my phone (text), email, letters and even my mothers account (now that's strange). To not find anything then we have to have the conversation about them acting crazy and that's never good. Not talking about you team leader and none of my relationships since 07' but that's the cut off ha (so relax). jk

So my question(s) is who's more jealous: men or women? Why do women act out w/o thinking about what they're really saying? Why don't men care enough? I wanna hear some of your crazy stories of jealousy and I don't want to hear about any abuse bc that shits lame and any man that puts his hands on a woman is not a man.

Holla at'cha boy zamfam

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Goodbye Love...

Goodbye Love.....

I have loved you from the first moment i saw you
Ninth grade when we met
Trips across the country that I will never forget..
Countless other things we talked about that we never got to do.
The time we shared so innocent and true.

Talks of our future together has faded into an unfulfilled goal
Now I sit here alone, with a heart that now has a hole
I loved you completely mind, body and soul...But
I gave you less than 100 percent,
So I guess this is what i get.
A sinking feeling in my stomach and eyes filled with tears
I can only blame myself and my foolish fears.

I wasted so much time trying to just be, and had you waiting on me
Thought you were going to be there forever, I believe this
But now I finally see
When loves in your hands you got to grow up, be a man, and walk across the sands
Grab it with all your might
As our love goes out of sight, and in your rear view
Know that I LOVE YOU....GOODBYE!!!!

-Ghost writer

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ADC, Inc.

Thanks. I've missed you!

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Keys

I had dinner with a really cool girl this weekend and very good friend. And she asked me about keys??

What does it mean in a relationship when you're partner gives you keys? Is there a difference if you ask for them opposed to them just giving them to you?

Talk to me.

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Better days...

"I still think about you. I still dream about you. I still want you and need you by my side. I'm still mad about you, all I ever wanted was you. You're still the one!"

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Value of "I'm sorry"

Are there different levels of "I'm sorry?"

When does it mean the most? When times are really bad; when you really fuck up or after a time period for everyone to reflex?

These two words are probably the hardest two words for any guy to say and especially for me. Why you may ask. Well, for selfish reasons. I very rarely if ever think I'm wrong in the situations from my past (I know this is wrong and I'm working on it). Before you start judging let me give that statement some legs to stand on.

I know I'm a very good guy, but I have some commitment issues and I know it. I was told by someone I really care about that I'm just like every other guy out there. That I'm no good, selfish and an ass. Don't quote me on those words but that's how it felt. I'm not stupid enough to act like words don't hurt because they do. When you hurt someone I guess their words carry a little more weight and cut a little deeper!

So where does I'm sorry come into play? I've hurt people before in my past but I've done it w/o trying. I've actually always done the opposite. I always try to make everyone happy. I don't make promises about the future, I just try my best to be a good guy and live in the moment.

When I was younger it was always about the next best thang!! Recently it's been about me and not listening to what people were saying with their words, actions and heart. I understand that now and want to start to see things through a different set of eyes.

Today November 8th it's about listening. I really do want to be a great guy, a committed guy and it sucks that in the past I had to go through some tough times to get to where I am today. I'm not perfect but I'm really going to try. I wanna be loved and I want someone to love. I'm sure there's someone out there that "hearts" me.

For anyone that I have hurt in the past "I'm sorry." I truly am sorry for the "lumps" and bruises on your heart. Not sure if the value of saying those words goes up as time passes, but if it doesn't right now, today for me they means the most!

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I'm in love with a woman by Steven Miles

I am in love with a woman that doesn't want me. I try so hard to make her see that we are meant to be. She keeps coming up with an excuse but i stay there and take the abuse That's it, if she wants to be blind then I am bout to go out and find someone thats mine so when i am taken and she is alone maybe then she will realize that my heart was her home.

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"Big Deal?"

I got a comment about introducing your current boyfriend or girlfriend to the family or friends. The question was is this a big deal? When do you think it's right to introduce your partner to your family and friends?

Well, I think that the friends have to come first. It's a must bc they'll always be honest with you about your pick bc for some reason friends A. Don't have a filter. B. Think that you don't have feeling and if they say, "She's wack!" It's not going to hurt your feelings..haha.

I think meeting the parents is a big deal. That's when everything becomes real. Without mom's permission your relationship isn't going anywhere...just my opinion. I can remember one time my mother wouldn't let me out of the house with this one chick, haha she was pretty lame.

ZamFam it's on you. Speak out...

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